Friday, July 30, 2004
It's so easy to get something you DONT want, yet so hard to get something you DO want..
Go figure.
Go figure.
Thursday, July 29, 2004
10 mins is all it took..
one short conversation..
one quick "hello.."
"how you doing?"
"how are you?"
"whats up?"
Now it's all different once more.
what happens now?
does it change everything?
does it mean something again?
i'm curious...
how will all this play out in the end?
You surprise me.
you got me thinking once again.
what now..?
one short conversation..
one quick "hello.."
"how you doing?"
"how are you?"
"whats up?"
Now it's all different once more.
what happens now?
does it change everything?
does it mean something again?
i'm curious...
how will all this play out in the end?
You surprise me.
you got me thinking once again.
what now..?
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
"The surest way to corrupt a youth is to instruct him to hold in higher esteem those who think alike than those who think differently."
-Friedrich Nietzsche
Interesting words. In this perspective, I say:
~Break thru the shell of the Norm.. Think, Explore, Experience, Learn and Live.~
-Friedrich Nietzsche
Interesting words. In this perspective, I say:
~Break thru the shell of the Norm.. Think, Explore, Experience, Learn and Live.~
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Rain = A Nostalgic & Eclectic Late Afternoon
As the narrator from the classic Winnie the Pooh cartoon once said, "..and so it rained from page 7, all the way up to page 12" *background song: And the rain, rain, rain, came down, down, down..* ok, so i'm not really sure if the pages i remember are correct, or if that was exactly how the narrator said it. hey, give me a break! that was a long time ago anyway hehe.
At least i got the chance to finally have my glasses repaired in Sarabia earlier this afternoon. i'm such a dunce in taking care of my glasses. i stepped on them the other day. yup, i'm a regular archie andrews type klutz..=Þ
It's been raining non stop now for a few days. i dont mind it though. i love the rain. it just makes everything so tranquil to me for some reason. i also love the sound it makes on the roof. so tonight, i plan to just relax in my room with something like hot cocoa, and watch a good dvd. hmm, i remembered i have to go to keenan's house first and check his new dvd's.
My current LSS's: Tears for Fears - Everybody wants to rule the world; Toto - Africa
Very 80's dont you think? i was bored awhile ago so i listened to some OoOoOld cd's. actually, not all the cd's i listened to awhile ago are that old. some are my old cd's from high school(The Corrs "Talk on Corners"; Nirvana "Unplugged in New York"; Counting Crows "Recovering the Satellites"; U2 "The Joshua Tree"; Lighthouse Family "Postcards from Heaven"; An old compilation cd of songs from Texas, Oasis, Soundgarden, Bush) i topped it off by going way back and listening to my dad's cd's of Toto, Tears for Fears, Sting, The Doors and Led Zep. Both Led Zep and The Doors cd's i already have pried away from him, and now call mine. hahaha! ;)
A nostalgic and eclectic trip = not being bored anymore. =)
As the narrator from the classic Winnie the Pooh cartoon once said, "..and so it rained from page 7, all the way up to page 12" *background song: And the rain, rain, rain, came down, down, down..* ok, so i'm not really sure if the pages i remember are correct, or if that was exactly how the narrator said it. hey, give me a break! that was a long time ago anyway hehe.
At least i got the chance to finally have my glasses repaired in Sarabia earlier this afternoon. i'm such a dunce in taking care of my glasses. i stepped on them the other day. yup, i'm a regular archie andrews type klutz..=Þ
It's been raining non stop now for a few days. i dont mind it though. i love the rain. it just makes everything so tranquil to me for some reason. i also love the sound it makes on the roof. so tonight, i plan to just relax in my room with something like hot cocoa, and watch a good dvd. hmm, i remembered i have to go to keenan's house first and check his new dvd's.
My current LSS's: Tears for Fears - Everybody wants to rule the world; Toto - Africa
Very 80's dont you think? i was bored awhile ago so i listened to some OoOoOld cd's. actually, not all the cd's i listened to awhile ago are that old. some are my old cd's from high school(The Corrs "Talk on Corners"; Nirvana "Unplugged in New York"; Counting Crows "Recovering the Satellites"; U2 "The Joshua Tree"; Lighthouse Family "Postcards from Heaven"; An old compilation cd of songs from Texas, Oasis, Soundgarden, Bush) i topped it off by going way back and listening to my dad's cd's of Toto, Tears for Fears, Sting, The Doors and Led Zep. Both Led Zep and The Doors cd's i already have pried away from him, and now call mine. hahaha! ;)
A nostalgic and eclectic trip = not being bored anymore. =)
Saturday, July 24, 2004
Last night i downed 10 bottles of strong ice. no, i'm not bragging about it. in fact, i think i dont want to drink another strong ice again for awhile. ugh. i made an ass of myself(what's new?!) last night, as i fell down the stairs of TJ's in ATC. ouch. and to think i just got up and started laughing with my friends about it. oh well, the only consolation is that no one but my friends saw it happen. whew!
I wonder whats in store for me tonight? hmmm...
DLSU vs Adamson game later at 4. Lets go la salle!! ANIMO!!
I wonder whats in store for me tonight? hmmm...
DLSU vs Adamson game later at 4. Lets go la salle!! ANIMO!!
Friday, July 23, 2004
Poetry and Rhymes
I realized that when its really quiet, or when i wake up unexpectedly, words flash inside my head and i come up with my best work. even better than the quick rhymes i normally produce when i'm under the influence of alcohol. its quiet now, all i hear is the text beeps of my cell phone, the crickets outside, and the fan. the only light i have is this shade of yellow and green from my lava lamp as it envelopes the room, and the light of this cigarette. they both seem to aid in sparking my "poetic flow" as i would like to call it. i just posted a new "flow" on the "flow-a-centric" part of my sidebar. and i couldnt have done that if it wasnt for the environment i'm given now. a new realization! cool! nyuk nyuk.
i'll try and experiment again next time by lounging on my bean bags with a paper and pen, with the same ambiance i have right now and check if it'll produce more "way out" poetry, rhymes and what nots. hey, anythings worth a try, right? =)
i just broke the silence of this room by playing some music by DJ Logic. wicked! if only i had some mango juice right now.. everything would be just perfect. =Þ
I realized that when its really quiet, or when i wake up unexpectedly, words flash inside my head and i come up with my best work. even better than the quick rhymes i normally produce when i'm under the influence of alcohol. its quiet now, all i hear is the text beeps of my cell phone, the crickets outside, and the fan. the only light i have is this shade of yellow and green from my lava lamp as it envelopes the room, and the light of this cigarette. they both seem to aid in sparking my "poetic flow" as i would like to call it. i just posted a new "flow" on the "flow-a-centric" part of my sidebar. and i couldnt have done that if it wasnt for the environment i'm given now. a new realization! cool! nyuk nyuk.
i'll try and experiment again next time by lounging on my bean bags with a paper and pen, with the same ambiance i have right now and check if it'll produce more "way out" poetry, rhymes and what nots. hey, anythings worth a try, right? =)
i just broke the silence of this room by playing some music by DJ Logic. wicked! if only i had some mango juice right now.. everything would be just perfect. =Þ
Thursday, July 22, 2004
Comment Template
Damn it... i dont know what the hell was wrong with the new comment script i was supposed to get.. it kept fucking up!! whenever i did test it by adding a comment, this page would pop-up showing all these errors about "mySQL on line blah blah is incorrect".. hoo boy. i'll just stick with the current comment template i have. i'll just retool it in a simple way instead. no more wild colors or whatever..
A Silver Linning!
I'm gonna be getting my room back tomorrow after "loaning" it to my british aunt. great! i get my room back til, what? early november or late october i think. and if i'm lucky, i get her car too.. ;)
ciao! arrivederci!
Damn it... i dont know what the hell was wrong with the new comment script i was supposed to get.. it kept fucking up!! whenever i did test it by adding a comment, this page would pop-up showing all these errors about "mySQL on line blah blah is incorrect".. hoo boy. i'll just stick with the current comment template i have. i'll just retool it in a simple way instead. no more wild colors or whatever..
A Silver Linning!
I'm gonna be getting my room back tomorrow after "loaning" it to my british aunt. great! i get my room back til, what? early november or late october i think. and if i'm lucky, i get her car too.. ;)
ciao! arrivederci!
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Miami Heat!!!
A new era has dawned upon the NBA! This upcomming season, the NBA will definately feel "The Heat" of Miami and its new found muscle!! I cant wait!
Diesel Power has arrived at Miami. Feel the intensity soon go off the scale!
A new era has dawned upon the NBA! This upcomming season, the NBA will definately feel "The Heat" of Miami and its new found muscle!! I cant wait!
Diesel Power has arrived at Miami. Feel the intensity soon go off the scale!
Monday, July 19, 2004
Soft Porn..
Have you guys seen the video, "Nu Virgos - Stop! Stop! Stop!" on MTV!? man.. that has got to be the most "hardcore softporn" i have ever seen. i mean.. take it easy!! i cant even remember any part of the lyrics and what the song is about.. i think i was too busy just checking the video! hahahahaha!!
Have you guys seen the video, "Nu Virgos - Stop! Stop! Stop!" on MTV!? man.. that has got to be the most "hardcore softporn" i have ever seen. i mean.. take it easy!! i cant even remember any part of the lyrics and what the song is about.. i think i was too busy just checking the video! hahahahaha!!
Sunday, July 18, 2004
Tonight was certainly an interesting night. i got to see a lot of people i havent seen in person for a long time. So, hi again to Cat, Mika(happy birthday once more!), Vis, and a stream of other faces..
One thing that does dissapoint me is that, i guess the makati crowd is getting older.. or is it just I'm still young? when you realize the people you're talking to are in their mid 20's, it suddenly hits you. just when you thought that makati was now dominated by younger people who just appear older than their age, reality checks in and fools you. not once, twice, probably a few times now..
a definate highlight, if you would call it that, i'd rather call it gut hurting laughing, is when a friend of mine was mistaken for a waiter by this chick, and actualy ordered a beer off of him!! hahaha! i just couldnt stop laughing in front of them both!! as my friend said, "kinausap na ako ng chick, akala pa nya waiter ako! tang inang yan!" hahaha! oh, and fez and cocoy were actualy denied entry at first to Temple bar, while i breezed through w/o any trouble! hahaha! funny shit! fez actualy had to go back to his car to get his license to prove his age! hahaha!
Maybe next week will be better for us.. anyway, i have to get up early for lunch with the clan. ugh! no hangover i'm sure, but this side of the family is mostly composed of vegetarians. the healthier choice, yes it is. the yummier choice, errr i'll get back to you on that one! yech!
Oh well.. happy sunday to all! i remembered that i also have to attend to the birthday party of my friends 2 year old daughter around 3 pm. man.. it's gonna be a busy sunday.
p.s. when drinking, drink more water. the feeling of drinking a lot of beer can leave a very irritating feeling on the insides of your cheeks. damn it!
*yawn..* ciao!
One thing that does dissapoint me is that, i guess the makati crowd is getting older.. or is it just I'm still young? when you realize the people you're talking to are in their mid 20's, it suddenly hits you. just when you thought that makati was now dominated by younger people who just appear older than their age, reality checks in and fools you. not once, twice, probably a few times now..
a definate highlight, if you would call it that, i'd rather call it gut hurting laughing, is when a friend of mine was mistaken for a waiter by this chick, and actualy ordered a beer off of him!! hahaha! i just couldnt stop laughing in front of them both!! as my friend said, "kinausap na ako ng chick, akala pa nya waiter ako! tang inang yan!" hahaha! oh, and fez and cocoy were actualy denied entry at first to Temple bar, while i breezed through w/o any trouble! hahaha! funny shit! fez actualy had to go back to his car to get his license to prove his age! hahaha!
Maybe next week will be better for us.. anyway, i have to get up early for lunch with the clan. ugh! no hangover i'm sure, but this side of the family is mostly composed of vegetarians. the healthier choice, yes it is. the yummier choice, errr i'll get back to you on that one! yech!
Oh well.. happy sunday to all! i remembered that i also have to attend to the birthday party of my friends 2 year old daughter around 3 pm. man.. it's gonna be a busy sunday.
p.s. when drinking, drink more water. the feeling of drinking a lot of beer can leave a very irritating feeling on the insides of your cheeks. damn it!
*yawn..* ciao!
Thursday, July 15, 2004
What the fuck is up with Thursdays!?! So far all the dreams I've had today(3), are really, really, really, really, REALLY WEIRD!!!!!!!!! I'm goin back to sleep after posing this, and I swear, if i get another crazy ass dream, I'll drink coffee until I piss it out!! Sheesh!! I've heard of Wacky Wednesday, but Thrusday Morning Nuts!? C'mon man... I cant even find a way of interpreting what i dreamt.. Or maybe it was because I had just watched King Arthur last night and that movie sucks worse than a cheap whore! Hahahahahahahaha!!!
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
The Streets Arent Safe Anymore..
Murder! murder commited just 2 house's down from my house. can you imagine that?! a 10 second walk down the street and your staring at a house where a crime was commited. and it wasn't noticed til around 5 pm today!!
the story was, the owner's of the house are in hong kong. they left 2 maids to protect the house. the younger maid left yesterday and had the day off. so she left an older maid to take charge of the house, overnight, alone. she was lucky she picked the right time to take the day off. at around 3 am early this morning, the caretaker/gardener of the house right beside it(he's the only one there, i have no idea who owns the house or where the owners are..) must've been drunk or drugged up on something. probably knowing that the owners of the house right beside had left the country, and that the house was left to just the maids, seized the opportunity, and broke into the house. the maid who was left alone, surely must've woken up from the noise and screamed. a house nearby heard someone scream that time, but thought of it as nothing.. sad. she was stabbed 4 times at the back from what a police friend of mine from the village said. she's dead. a life gone just like that. and just a few steps away from my home.. damn.
police arent sure whether the suspect tried raping her or she fought back at the suspect. and they arent even sure if anything valuable was stolen. they arent even sure if the motive was rape or to steal. forensics arrived on the scene and immediately took pictures of all the bloodstains in the house and at the caretakers house(he tried washing off the blood..), and analyzed what else might've happened. there was a huge crowd gathered around the area, as onlookers and neighbors(myself included) watched and waited for any answers or new reports from the police. i only realized now that the police that roam our village have no right to enter a house of a scene of a crime here without authorization from the owner. with the owners being abroad, they had to call SOCOM(police division), and wait for them to arrive. the SOCOM also had to wait for a warrant or authorization from somewhere else too before given the chance to enter the house. the maid who took the day off, and was spared her life by chance, was about to enter the house when she noticed that there was blood all over the door handle, gate and elsewhere. she never entered the house to check because fear obviously took over, and called security. and security couldnt immediately check what had happened w/o authority. damn. the poor girl. she was probably traumatized.
i used to walk pass that house late at nights and early mornings to go to my friend's houses. i dont think i'll be doing that anymore unless i see security nearby keeping post and watch. that's two crimes commited in a span of less than 2 months. alabang is now on high red alert. security will be tightened, patrols will circle our areas more frequently, and stricter rules will be set to wary individuals or groups who enter our village. and all i can say about it is, its about time! we cant afford to let another crime like that happen in our village. and as neighbors, i think its also our duty to protect one another. life surely is unpredictable...
Murder! murder commited just 2 house's down from my house. can you imagine that?! a 10 second walk down the street and your staring at a house where a crime was commited. and it wasn't noticed til around 5 pm today!!
the story was, the owner's of the house are in hong kong. they left 2 maids to protect the house. the younger maid left yesterday and had the day off. so she left an older maid to take charge of the house, overnight, alone. she was lucky she picked the right time to take the day off. at around 3 am early this morning, the caretaker/gardener of the house right beside it(he's the only one there, i have no idea who owns the house or where the owners are..) must've been drunk or drugged up on something. probably knowing that the owners of the house right beside had left the country, and that the house was left to just the maids, seized the opportunity, and broke into the house. the maid who was left alone, surely must've woken up from the noise and screamed. a house nearby heard someone scream that time, but thought of it as nothing.. sad. she was stabbed 4 times at the back from what a police friend of mine from the village said. she's dead. a life gone just like that. and just a few steps away from my home.. damn.
police arent sure whether the suspect tried raping her or she fought back at the suspect. and they arent even sure if anything valuable was stolen. they arent even sure if the motive was rape or to steal. forensics arrived on the scene and immediately took pictures of all the bloodstains in the house and at the caretakers house(he tried washing off the blood..), and analyzed what else might've happened. there was a huge crowd gathered around the area, as onlookers and neighbors(myself included) watched and waited for any answers or new reports from the police. i only realized now that the police that roam our village have no right to enter a house of a scene of a crime here without authorization from the owner. with the owners being abroad, they had to call SOCOM(police division), and wait for them to arrive. the SOCOM also had to wait for a warrant or authorization from somewhere else too before given the chance to enter the house. the maid who took the day off, and was spared her life by chance, was about to enter the house when she noticed that there was blood all over the door handle, gate and elsewhere. she never entered the house to check because fear obviously took over, and called security. and security couldnt immediately check what had happened w/o authority. damn. the poor girl. she was probably traumatized.
i used to walk pass that house late at nights and early mornings to go to my friend's houses. i dont think i'll be doing that anymore unless i see security nearby keeping post and watch. that's two crimes commited in a span of less than 2 months. alabang is now on high red alert. security will be tightened, patrols will circle our areas more frequently, and stricter rules will be set to wary individuals or groups who enter our village. and all i can say about it is, its about time! we cant afford to let another crime like that happen in our village. and as neighbors, i think its also our duty to protect one another. life surely is unpredictable...
Monday, July 12, 2004
woke up suddenly, because of something i dreamt.. i just placed it in writing.
if i ever
see you face to face again
ill ask you why..
so soon.
the flame that flickers
that broke the black of night
that you shined..
with your smile.
blowed out the candle
returned the darkness back..
extinguished fire.
I hate that its still haunting
me, its bitter and its pale..
i hope i make it.
oh why'd this happen
i cant seem to understand why..
it all happened so soon.
27 draws closer..
if i ever
see you face to face again
ill ask you why..
so soon.
the flame that flickers
that broke the black of night
that you shined..
with your smile.
blowed out the candle
returned the darkness back..
extinguished fire.
I hate that its still haunting
me, its bitter and its pale..
i hope i make it.
oh why'd this happen
i cant seem to understand why..
it all happened so soon.
27 draws closer..
Sunday, July 11, 2004
Weekend
Tiring.. thats all i can say about this weekend. i spent all day saturday in Quezon City with my cousins. we went straight to their shooting range and spent the whole afternoon there. it being my first time to shoot a real gun all i can say is WOW! the adrenaline is something else! once you get into it, you crave for that gunpowder smell, the sound the bullets make when you hit the targets, and the force of their recoil. i tried shooting with three guns: a .38 caliber, a revolver, and a shotgun! yup! a shotgun!! first time users would be really surprised on how strong the recoil of a shotgun is. it literaly sends your body back because of the force of the blast! and it'll hurt your shoulder when firing.. i didnt like using my cousins .38 because it was already customized and had a laser scope. whats the point in firing the targets when your acually cheating thru the laser sight, right? it was great though to be able to shoot 8 bullets straight at the cardboard target since it was also an automatic. one cock, and blam! blam! blam! the revolver was my fave since it was challenging. you had to really learn how to relax and concentrate in aiming. taking your time and lining up your shot. my first go at it, i got mostly body hits, 4 hits, 2 misses. and after being taught more on aiming properly by my unlce, i lined up for another go with the revolver. a distance of 15 feet, and i got all 6 bullets in the head area! not bad for a beginer! my uncle actually told me that it was very good for a first timer to get that acurate, that fast. he also told me to target practice and visit the shooting range more. and after a few sessions, he'd help in getting me a gun license. during the knocking down targets gallery, i was the most acurate also with all my cousins. 2 tries, 3 out of 5 targets knocked down each time. but seriously, its no joke handling a gun. you cant shoot like what you see on tv or in the movies. its all bullshit! gun safety and learning how to hold the gunis a big deal! no duh! i now have a new addiction.. and thats shooting!! i cant wait for my next run at target practice.
We spent saturday night first at my cousins house in QC drinking a few.. then me and my cousins went to my grandma's house from my mom's side just a few blocks away for a few more bottles of beer. the food was great! salpicao, oysters, kilawin, spicy gambas etc. also had a few shots of vodka there. grabed a bottle each for the trip going back south to Alabang. droped my cousin, Mara, at Martin's condo in greenhills first. stoped at Shell Magalanes for another beer run. arrived in Alabang. showered, my cousin Carlo met up with his chick, Annie, first. so me and Mig brought home my brothers girlfriend to BF Homes first, we picked our brothers up after and decided to pass by Starbucks BF and check on my cousin Javi who works there and talked a bit. stoped by caltex, bought 2 grandes of Colt, 2 bottles of Gin, and proceeded home. there, me, mig, carlo, annie, my bro justin, mig's bro anton, and sieg drank and drank even more. my mom who just got home from the party at QC joined us for drinks too. we ended around 5 am i think.. and we all passed out in one room. and i do mean pass out!!
We had to get up around 9 am sunday despite our wicked, unforgiving hangovers because our clan spent all day sunday at Tagaytay Highlands, stuffing ourselves, and swimming. i dont mind that i missed the La Salle-Ateneo game, my dad told me that DLSU lost by 3, and i wouldnt want to watch La Salle lose(especially to Ateneo!). so i dont mind missing the game. i'm tired as hell now, still lacking sleep so i think i'm gonna be retiring early tonight.
ciao.
Tiring.. thats all i can say about this weekend. i spent all day saturday in Quezon City with my cousins. we went straight to their shooting range and spent the whole afternoon there. it being my first time to shoot a real gun all i can say is WOW! the adrenaline is something else! once you get into it, you crave for that gunpowder smell, the sound the bullets make when you hit the targets, and the force of their recoil. i tried shooting with three guns: a .38 caliber, a revolver, and a shotgun! yup! a shotgun!! first time users would be really surprised on how strong the recoil of a shotgun is. it literaly sends your body back because of the force of the blast! and it'll hurt your shoulder when firing.. i didnt like using my cousins .38 because it was already customized and had a laser scope. whats the point in firing the targets when your acually cheating thru the laser sight, right? it was great though to be able to shoot 8 bullets straight at the cardboard target since it was also an automatic. one cock, and blam! blam! blam! the revolver was my fave since it was challenging. you had to really learn how to relax and concentrate in aiming. taking your time and lining up your shot. my first go at it, i got mostly body hits, 4 hits, 2 misses. and after being taught more on aiming properly by my unlce, i lined up for another go with the revolver. a distance of 15 feet, and i got all 6 bullets in the head area! not bad for a beginer! my uncle actually told me that it was very good for a first timer to get that acurate, that fast. he also told me to target practice and visit the shooting range more. and after a few sessions, he'd help in getting me a gun license. during the knocking down targets gallery, i was the most acurate also with all my cousins. 2 tries, 3 out of 5 targets knocked down each time. but seriously, its no joke handling a gun. you cant shoot like what you see on tv or in the movies. its all bullshit! gun safety and learning how to hold the gunis a big deal! no duh! i now have a new addiction.. and thats shooting!! i cant wait for my next run at target practice.
We spent saturday night first at my cousins house in QC drinking a few.. then me and my cousins went to my grandma's house from my mom's side just a few blocks away for a few more bottles of beer. the food was great! salpicao, oysters, kilawin, spicy gambas etc. also had a few shots of vodka there. grabed a bottle each for the trip going back south to Alabang. droped my cousin, Mara, at Martin's condo in greenhills first. stoped at Shell Magalanes for another beer run. arrived in Alabang. showered, my cousin Carlo met up with his chick, Annie, first. so me and Mig brought home my brothers girlfriend to BF Homes first, we picked our brothers up after and decided to pass by Starbucks BF and check on my cousin Javi who works there and talked a bit. stoped by caltex, bought 2 grandes of Colt, 2 bottles of Gin, and proceeded home. there, me, mig, carlo, annie, my bro justin, mig's bro anton, and sieg drank and drank even more. my mom who just got home from the party at QC joined us for drinks too. we ended around 5 am i think.. and we all passed out in one room. and i do mean pass out!!
We had to get up around 9 am sunday despite our wicked, unforgiving hangovers because our clan spent all day sunday at Tagaytay Highlands, stuffing ourselves, and swimming. i dont mind that i missed the La Salle-Ateneo game, my dad told me that DLSU lost by 3, and i wouldnt want to watch La Salle lose(especially to Ateneo!). so i dont mind missing the game. i'm tired as hell now, still lacking sleep so i think i'm gonna be retiring early tonight.
ciao.
Thursday, July 08, 2004
This excerpt was taken from the website: http://www.erowid.org/experiences/.. its one of those sites that give you details or advice on a lot of drugs.. here, a user gives a detailed explanation of his experience with a flower that can even be seen here in our country. its local name here? Talampunay or in english, Angels Trumpet. this flower grows everywhere.. i see a lot of it in Tagaytay, but you can even grow it in your backyard. i've actually heard of this before, but i never had the guts to try it.. i was too scared. and after reading this guy's experience, it's still a definate HELL NO!!!!
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DOSE : 3 flowers oral Brugmansia (tea)
3 leaves oral Brugmansia (tea)
I live in mexico... so Datura or Brugmansia plants aren't hard to find... At the highway sometimes you can see hundreds of these plants... but the most common ones are Brugmansia candida and Brugmansia versicolor. Anyway, I picked up 3 yellow flowers (B. versicolor) and 2 white ones (B. candida)... also picked 5 leaves.
I wasnt sure if boiling would cause scopolamine and atropine to disappear due to heat action, so it seemed logical to me that heat wasn't needed... I chewed a leaf and nothing happened... except for that nasty flavor... So I mixed 3 B. versicolor flowers and 3 leaves in about 500ml water... I waited for about 3 hrs to let tropane alkaloids out of the flower/leaves iber.
First I drank about 100ml and the way it tasted was awful.
I waited half an hour to see if the effects would appear as with Real Daturas (Datura inoxia... also called Toloache or Yerba del Diablo) but nothing happened...
I thought that Brugmansias had a very poor amount of Scopolamine/atropine so I decided to drink the rest of the solution... Again the solution flavor almost caused me to vomit, but anyways I drank it all.
I waited for about 30 minutes and nothing happened...
I was kind of frustrated but about an hour after ingestion, I started to feel some strange things about my conscience.
I started to walk around my house... went to my room, studio, kitchen, living room, garden etc... I didnt knew why I was doing that... I looked through the windows and the world outside seemed artificial (something like those sketches that use in movies)... Outside seemed so new, so artificial, but also so nice...
I felt happy because I´ve never tried Brugmansia... This 'artificial world feeling' lasted for about 30 minutes and then altough it was still there, it was barely noticeable.
Then I started to feel my legs very weak and I decided to sit in my bed for a while...
I was looking through the window and then strange things happened... My peripheral vision changed at the point that images were disstortioned like if they were covered by water or some jelly like substance... I tried to feel my heart (as I always do when trying a psychoactive), but i couldnt feel it... I countinued trying and trying but I could feel nothing.
I started to feel nausea, and I decided to go to bed again, this time to rest... I tried to rest, but I couldnt... I felt disoriented... I didnt know were was my room´s window, or if I was lying on my bed... I felt confused.
Those things were nasty, but something happened that still makes me feel scared... I was lying on my bed and then I felt like someone had touch my shoulder... I had read about tropane alkaloids, so this seemed normal to me... then I felt again like someone had touched my back, then my lef leg, then my arms, then my other leg... etc...
This wasn't scary or something, but then I started to feel electric shocks all over my body, but in specific areas... first I felt a shock in my back, then my legs, etc... This was HORRIBLE... I couldnt stop that!!... I tried to calm down and I did it well... shocks almost disappeared.
I fell asleep, although I'm not sure if I was sleeping or if I was awake but in some altered conscience state... My girlfriend woke me up and we talked for some minutes. Then two friends entered to my room and I talked to them... when I turned back my girl wasnt there!!! then I turned around again and my friends weren't there either!!!
I knew those were hallucinations, but DAMN!! they were sooooo reaaall... Friends and people keeped coming the whole night but although i knew they were hallucinations, I talked to them loud as if they were real people. It was just that my brain wanted to talk to them... I couldnt stop... then electricity came back, but this time harder...
That nasty feeling attacked my neck to the point that I couldn't move my head... that lasted for about an hour!... an hour of suffering... and then it disappeared.
Many other friends came to visit me and then I felt electricity in my right arm... This time I felt really bad... that 'electricity' feeling was really really painful and I couldnt stop it... This lasted for about 3 hours and I couldn't rest or be distracted or anything else to forget about that pain.
I started to think the solution was poisonous, but I woke up and went to the bathroom to relax a bit. Pain in the right arm dissapeared as i looked at myself in front of the mirror. I knew it was me at the mirror, but I felt like if that guy wasnt me... like if it was a different person, with different feelings that was looking at me. I laughed at that feeling but the reflection didn't...I got close to the mirror, but the reflection didnt move a single cm...
I returned to my bed and started to feel cramps, nausea, touching, electricity running all over my arms. I opened my eyes to see if everything was ok, and my room was different... I mean... same stuff in there, but all furniture was in a different place... I closed my eyes again, and opened them in about 2 minutes... Damn!! the furniture wasnt there!
I looked through my window again, and I saw a flashing light... one... two... three!... like the ones u see in a big rain storm... I rested again and friends appeared again. I talked to them the whole night as if they were there.
Next morning i woke up and I couldn't tell if my world was real or not. Datura´s hallucinations are so real that I couldnt tell if I was still 'dreaming'. I walked around my house and I realized that I was normal again... I went to the kitchen... etc... then I started to feel cramps at my right arm, but nothing seriouse... I was happy because everything was over...
I went to the bathroom and saw me at the mirror.. The reflection was normal, except for one thing... It´s eyes were closed. Then I moved and it moved too... even it felt normal, but the eyes... closed eyes... DAMN!!!
I touched my eyes, and they were closed too!!! The reflection wasn't wrong! I could see even if my eyes were closed!!!... This felt so real!!!... so real!!! I could walk, sit, watch tv, everything as if my eyes where open...
Then cramps started again... so i decided to rest a little... I woke up and nothing was wrong... Im pretty sure I wasnt at Brugmansia's effects anymore. Everything was normal again, but I couldnt read, or see some details of the things in my house, my vision was pretty blurry due to scopolamine as I had read.
Blurry vision disappeared sometimes, but it came back in a few minutes.
Then electricity again... and again, and again, It was a living hell... hallucinations were over... All I had was that I was poisoned... Not something to worry about, but it is something I wouldn't wish on anyone.
My trip (If u can call it that) lasted for about 20 hours... and the blurry vision lasted 3 days...
That night I learned something...
Brugmansia can give u hallucinations so real that u can be confused about whether you are hallucinating or not... Also... Brugmansia are highly poisonous. You must treat this lady with all respect she deserves. She is the kind of plant you dont want to mess with.
I dont know if my uncooked solution was the problem, but I'm sure I wont do it again... cooked, smoked, snorted or whatever. This plant is for the kind of persons that want to try everything at least once.
I personally discourage the use of this plant as a recreational psychoactive. It seemed really dangerous and if u have a bad trip like mine you may be TORTURED for hours or even days...
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SCARY SHIT MAN!!!!!
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DOSE : 3 flowers oral Brugmansia (tea)
3 leaves oral Brugmansia (tea)
I live in mexico... so Datura or Brugmansia plants aren't hard to find... At the highway sometimes you can see hundreds of these plants... but the most common ones are Brugmansia candida and Brugmansia versicolor. Anyway, I picked up 3 yellow flowers (B. versicolor) and 2 white ones (B. candida)... also picked 5 leaves.
I wasnt sure if boiling would cause scopolamine and atropine to disappear due to heat action, so it seemed logical to me that heat wasn't needed... I chewed a leaf and nothing happened... except for that nasty flavor... So I mixed 3 B. versicolor flowers and 3 leaves in about 500ml water... I waited for about 3 hrs to let tropane alkaloids out of the flower/leaves iber.
First I drank about 100ml and the way it tasted was awful.
I waited half an hour to see if the effects would appear as with Real Daturas (Datura inoxia... also called Toloache or Yerba del Diablo) but nothing happened...
I thought that Brugmansias had a very poor amount of Scopolamine/atropine so I decided to drink the rest of the solution... Again the solution flavor almost caused me to vomit, but anyways I drank it all.
I waited for about 30 minutes and nothing happened...
I was kind of frustrated but about an hour after ingestion, I started to feel some strange things about my conscience.
I started to walk around my house... went to my room, studio, kitchen, living room, garden etc... I didnt knew why I was doing that... I looked through the windows and the world outside seemed artificial (something like those sketches that use in movies)... Outside seemed so new, so artificial, but also so nice...
I felt happy because I´ve never tried Brugmansia... This 'artificial world feeling' lasted for about 30 minutes and then altough it was still there, it was barely noticeable.
Then I started to feel my legs very weak and I decided to sit in my bed for a while...
I was looking through the window and then strange things happened... My peripheral vision changed at the point that images were disstortioned like if they were covered by water or some jelly like substance... I tried to feel my heart (as I always do when trying a psychoactive), but i couldnt feel it... I countinued trying and trying but I could feel nothing.
I started to feel nausea, and I decided to go to bed again, this time to rest... I tried to rest, but I couldnt... I felt disoriented... I didnt know were was my room´s window, or if I was lying on my bed... I felt confused.
Those things were nasty, but something happened that still makes me feel scared... I was lying on my bed and then I felt like someone had touch my shoulder... I had read about tropane alkaloids, so this seemed normal to me... then I felt again like someone had touched my back, then my lef leg, then my arms, then my other leg... etc...
This wasn't scary or something, but then I started to feel electric shocks all over my body, but in specific areas... first I felt a shock in my back, then my legs, etc... This was HORRIBLE... I couldnt stop that!!... I tried to calm down and I did it well... shocks almost disappeared.
I fell asleep, although I'm not sure if I was sleeping or if I was awake but in some altered conscience state... My girlfriend woke me up and we talked for some minutes. Then two friends entered to my room and I talked to them... when I turned back my girl wasnt there!!! then I turned around again and my friends weren't there either!!!
I knew those were hallucinations, but DAMN!! they were sooooo reaaall... Friends and people keeped coming the whole night but although i knew they were hallucinations, I talked to them loud as if they were real people. It was just that my brain wanted to talk to them... I couldnt stop... then electricity came back, but this time harder...
That nasty feeling attacked my neck to the point that I couldn't move my head... that lasted for about an hour!... an hour of suffering... and then it disappeared.
Many other friends came to visit me and then I felt electricity in my right arm... This time I felt really bad... that 'electricity' feeling was really really painful and I couldnt stop it... This lasted for about 3 hours and I couldn't rest or be distracted or anything else to forget about that pain.
I started to think the solution was poisonous, but I woke up and went to the bathroom to relax a bit. Pain in the right arm dissapeared as i looked at myself in front of the mirror. I knew it was me at the mirror, but I felt like if that guy wasnt me... like if it was a different person, with different feelings that was looking at me. I laughed at that feeling but the reflection didn't...I got close to the mirror, but the reflection didnt move a single cm...
I returned to my bed and started to feel cramps, nausea, touching, electricity running all over my arms. I opened my eyes to see if everything was ok, and my room was different... I mean... same stuff in there, but all furniture was in a different place... I closed my eyes again, and opened them in about 2 minutes... Damn!! the furniture wasnt there!
I looked through my window again, and I saw a flashing light... one... two... three!... like the ones u see in a big rain storm... I rested again and friends appeared again. I talked to them the whole night as if they were there.
Next morning i woke up and I couldn't tell if my world was real or not. Datura´s hallucinations are so real that I couldnt tell if I was still 'dreaming'. I walked around my house and I realized that I was normal again... I went to the kitchen... etc... then I started to feel cramps at my right arm, but nothing seriouse... I was happy because everything was over...
I went to the bathroom and saw me at the mirror.. The reflection was normal, except for one thing... It´s eyes were closed. Then I moved and it moved too... even it felt normal, but the eyes... closed eyes... DAMN!!!
I touched my eyes, and they were closed too!!! The reflection wasn't wrong! I could see even if my eyes were closed!!!... This felt so real!!!... so real!!! I could walk, sit, watch tv, everything as if my eyes where open...
Then cramps started again... so i decided to rest a little... I woke up and nothing was wrong... Im pretty sure I wasnt at Brugmansia's effects anymore. Everything was normal again, but I couldnt read, or see some details of the things in my house, my vision was pretty blurry due to scopolamine as I had read.
Blurry vision disappeared sometimes, but it came back in a few minutes.
Then electricity again... and again, and again, It was a living hell... hallucinations were over... All I had was that I was poisoned... Not something to worry about, but it is something I wouldn't wish on anyone.
My trip (If u can call it that) lasted for about 20 hours... and the blurry vision lasted 3 days...
That night I learned something...
Brugmansia can give u hallucinations so real that u can be confused about whether you are hallucinating or not... Also... Brugmansia are highly poisonous. You must treat this lady with all respect she deserves. She is the kind of plant you dont want to mess with.
I dont know if my uncooked solution was the problem, but I'm sure I wont do it again... cooked, smoked, snorted or whatever. This plant is for the kind of persons that want to try everything at least once.
I personally discourage the use of this plant as a recreational psychoactive. It seemed really dangerous and if u have a bad trip like mine you may be TORTURED for hours or even days...
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SCARY SHIT MAN!!!!!
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Já sei namorar
Já sei namorar
Já sei beijar de língua
Agora, só me resta sonhar
Já sei onde ir
Já sei onde ficar
Agora, só me falta sair
Não tenho paciência pra televisão
Eu não sou audiência para a solidão
Eu sou de ninguém
Eu sou de todo mundo
E todo mundo me quer bem
Eu sou de ninguém
Eu sou de todo mundo
E todo mundo é meu também
Já sei namorar
Já sei chutar a bola
Agora, só me falta ganhar
Não tenho juiz
Se você quer a vida em jogo
Eu quero é ser feliz
Não tenho paciência pra televisão
Eu não sou audiência para a solidão
Eu sou de ninguém
Eu sou de todo mundo
E todo mundo me quer bem
Eu sou de ninguém
Eu sou de todo mundo
E todo mundo é meu também
Tô te querendo como ninguém
Tô te querendo como Deus quiser
Tô te querendo como eu te quero
Tô te querendo como se quer
Já sei namorar
Já sei beijar de língua
Agora, só me resta sonhar
Já sei onde ir
Já sei onde ficar
Agora, só me falta sair
Não tenho paciência pra televisão
Eu não sou audiência para a solidão
Eu sou de ninguém
Eu sou de todo mundo
E todo mundo me quer bem
Eu sou de ninguém
Eu sou de todo mundo
E todo mundo é meu também
Já sei namorar
Já sei chutar a bola
Agora, só me falta ganhar
Não tenho juiz
Se você quer a vida em jogo
Eu quero é ser feliz
Não tenho paciência pra televisão
Eu não sou audiência para a solidão
Eu sou de ninguém
Eu sou de todo mundo
E todo mundo me quer bem
Eu sou de ninguém
Eu sou de todo mundo
E todo mundo é meu também
Tô te querendo como ninguém
Tô te querendo como Deus quiser
Tô te querendo como eu te quero
Tô te querendo como se quer
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
FORE-za!
My dad just hit his first hole in one today, at Hole #8, a par 3 at the Alabang Country Club. he's gonna be receiving a plauqe or trophy i think for the accomplishment. i havent seen him this happy in months! i'm happy for him.. but im sure as hell that he's even more ecstatic for himself! hahahaha! he already promised dinner out or pizza delivered(Brooklyn!!). and from the glint of happiness in his eyes, i'm sure he's true to his word! so here's to you pop! !!Congratulations!!
My dad just hit his first hole in one today, at Hole #8, a par 3 at the Alabang Country Club. he's gonna be receiving a plauqe or trophy i think for the accomplishment. i havent seen him this happy in months! i'm happy for him.. but im sure as hell that he's even more ecstatic for himself! hahahaha! he already promised dinner out or pizza delivered(Brooklyn!!). and from the glint of happiness in his eyes, i'm sure he's true to his word! so here's to you pop! !!Congratulations!!
Monday, July 05, 2004
Bridging the Generation Gap
Sunday night.. one case of beer. me, my mom, my cousin migs.. one case of beer?! nothing to it! drinking with them til 3 in the morning, sure! great conversations!! i was surprised my mom opened up more about all the drugs she and my dad took before during the 70's! cocaine, weed(she told me about this waaaay back, but elaborated and told more stories), and a shit load of downers that i cant even remember their names! she said some of those downers arent available anymore haha! in exchange, me and my cousin told her about ecstacy and stuff about weed. i told her that i remember smelling their stash in these containers that are still here at our house(they now stay in my room) way back when before i was even 10. she told me that when she and my dad would smoke it before that i would always say, "daddy, i like this smell" hahahah! but i'm through with weed anyway. i dont smoke it as much anymore. to the point of rarity that i smoke up. she knows i used to smoke up(she caught me and my cousins or friends red handed a billion times!), take a lot of valiums(she saw all the "banigs" in my drawers), that i take E at times, and that i tried speed. she's cool with everything though, since she, my dad and my other uncles and aunts we're so into also during their time. she's just glad i'm not into drugs anymore and have shifted into a soccer and music junkie! hahaha! you just grow out of it i guess.. i guess our family is proof that you could actually bridge the generation gap. all it takes is opening up and honesty. oh, and beer. haha! i love my family, and i wouldnt trade them for anything in the world! we've gotten closer and closer as we have gotten older. and its just a great thing.. =)
Sunday night.. one case of beer. me, my mom, my cousin migs.. one case of beer?! nothing to it! drinking with them til 3 in the morning, sure! great conversations!! i was surprised my mom opened up more about all the drugs she and my dad took before during the 70's! cocaine, weed(she told me about this waaaay back, but elaborated and told more stories), and a shit load of downers that i cant even remember their names! she said some of those downers arent available anymore haha! in exchange, me and my cousin told her about ecstacy and stuff about weed. i told her that i remember smelling their stash in these containers that are still here at our house(they now stay in my room) way back when before i was even 10. she told me that when she and my dad would smoke it before that i would always say, "daddy, i like this smell" hahahah! but i'm through with weed anyway. i dont smoke it as much anymore. to the point of rarity that i smoke up. she knows i used to smoke up(she caught me and my cousins or friends red handed a billion times!), take a lot of valiums(she saw all the "banigs" in my drawers), that i take E at times, and that i tried speed. she's cool with everything though, since she, my dad and my other uncles and aunts we're so into also during their time. she's just glad i'm not into drugs anymore and have shifted into a soccer and music junkie! hahaha! you just grow out of it i guess.. i guess our family is proof that you could actually bridge the generation gap. all it takes is opening up and honesty. oh, and beer. haha! i love my family, and i wouldnt trade them for anything in the world! we've gotten closer and closer as we have gotten older. and its just a great thing.. =)
Saturday, July 03, 2004
Ok.. so friday night was once more spent at home, with all my friends, killing a case of beer, practicing our golf swings and our soccer skills.. typical. yet.. i crave something else. something deeper. something with more purpose. what is it? i dont know.. maybe its the rut im in now. its not helping in solving my conundrum of what i "really" do seek.
ok.. tonight is saturday. i'll be spending it with some friends in makati. but honestly, i'd rather be with this certain someone. only my friends know who she is though..=) hahaha! too bad i couldnt be with her tonight. but there will be another night. i'm sure of it. ;)
one realization i came upon when i woke up today: "If theres one thing you can count on in life, the only thing thats permanent is change.."
ok.. tonight is saturday. i'll be spending it with some friends in makati. but honestly, i'd rather be with this certain someone. only my friends know who she is though..=) hahaha! too bad i couldnt be with her tonight. but there will be another night. i'm sure of it. ;)
one realization i came upon when i woke up today: "If theres one thing you can count on in life, the only thing thats permanent is change.."
